I now understand, as a licensed and working psychotherapist, that beneath anger exists hurt. We grow angry and we hurt when someone or something transgresses our boundaries.
And while small amounts of frustration lead to growth and creativity, continual frustration indicates a seething bed of continual anger.
Astrologers warn that perpetual frustration–fuming anger–leads to explosions. The inconjunct aspect ruled and symbolized by the outer and transpersonal planet, Uranus, indicates the in dynamic energy of frustration.
The inconjunct aspect between various planets indicates the possibility and when viewed in hindsight display explosions.
I was shot by a psychotic schizophrenic–I was his 5th of six victims, all women–when the Sun was aspecting my Uranus-Moon conjunction that is located at the top of my chart on my mid-heaven.
Interestingly enough, the planetary aspect of Uranus conjunct Saturn sat in the first house of my mother’s astrological chart.
While Saturn represents the earthly plane of rules and discipline, Uranus speaks to abstract aspects of mind and the expansion of mind through thought and ideas, concepts and axioms that are often ahead of their time.
The higher octave of Mercury, symbolized by the Greek god Mercury, Uranus is associated with human genius and ingenuity.
My mother and I stood at a 135-degree angle to each other. We rubbed each other in uncomfortable and painful ways. We set each other on edge, left the other feeling less than, intimidated.
We were inconjunct.
The astrological aspect of the inconjunct, and the energy of the planet Uranus defined our relationship, that of mother and daughter, and the way we interacted.
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