Anjuelle Floyd

Of Daughters, Bloodlines and The Survival of Humanity …

One of the most exciting things about being a daughter is that I received the charge to carry forth the lineage of both my mother and my father. Not only have they achieved immortality in that they live on in my memory, but I, in being a woman held the capability of giving birth. And with this I have delivered three children, all girls, into this world.

Much is said about men and carrying on the name of a family. A name is but a name. We can change

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Eagler in Flight

Of Determination, Eagles and One’s Personal Best …

My mother was a hard worker. All her actions were founded upon a strong work ethic.

My father worked hard too. He had no choice as a farmer.

My mother held a dedication to not simply the work she did. She approached all tasks as a job to be, and done well.

The degree to which you did a job well, spoke, in her mind, to your character.

It mattered not the task, rather, our approach to complete the task and accomplish this by giving your personal best.

This personal best formed the essence of the entire individual, according to my mother.

I have adopted this belief.

I encourage

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"Details of 'Common Ground'"

Of The Great Depression, A Soft Tone and Common Ground …

My mother was straight and to the point.
I did not always like her brash tone. Nor did I like her unwavering directness.
Then again, my mother grew up during The Great Depression. Born in 1920, she was but nine years old when the Crash of ’29 (1929) occurred.

I remember her describing how they all went to bed, she and her five other siblings, my grandmother had not yet given birth to her youngest child, went to bed and upon waking the next morning discovered, along with reading in the local newspaper, thousands of people who had to that point, held much money, were now poor same as my mother and her family.

Some of these people lived in small town in southeastern North Carolina where my mother grew up.

This proved, I gathered over the many years I heard my mother tell this story, an eye-opening moment for her.

Not only did she grow up poor, my mother saw

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"Admiration"

Of Mothers, Admiration, and Forfeited Goals …

Despite the difficulties I had with my mother I admired much about her. That I admired so much about a woman who could be abusive speaks to the craziness of our relationship and my own struggles.

Yet and still my mother was a hard worker.

Whatever she set her mind to achieve, she remained committed until she had ascertained the goal.

As for not gaining the goal, I cannot remember anything that she set out to do and she later admitted not having accomplished.

This is weird to think about, because there are things in my life that I set out to gain, but for whatever reason have not attained, forfeited them.

Somewhere during the first five years of my marriage I

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Appreciation

Of Frustration, Suicidal Ideations, and The Need to Feel Appreciated …

Everyone wants to know that they matter, that no one else can fill their role and that they are appreciated.

I wish to have told my mother how much I, her daughter, appreciated her.

But doing that would have entailed, if I were honest, also telling her how much she hurt me.

More importantly, letting her know how special she was in my life, emphasizing the unique role she played in my development, would have included telling her how much I needed her to be kind to me, that I looked up to her and when she lashed out I felt horrible, worse than that actually.

I wanted

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Similarity by Jan Meeus

Of Axioms, Doubt and Similarities …

by Jan Meeus My mother dispensed a number of axioms that I adhere to. “Dress appropriately for the occasion. First impressions are lasting impressions. ” “Start 0ut the way you want to end up. People aren’t too keen on changing in midstream.” “Do a good job at whatever the task, even if it’s just sweeping the

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Journey by mferrell24--3469932939_3d3a87ee13_o

Of Jokes, Cigarettes and The Journey of Life …

by mferrell24 My mother never told jokes. Neither did my father. In fact jokes being told in the home were not a part of my childhood. I say this because I know families and people who can tell a good joke, if not repeat one that they heard. I do not mean jokes used to poke

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