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Of History, Bloodlines and Memory …

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Historically women and mothers have been and encouraged their daughters to live guarded lives. By guarded lives I mean not allowing love to determine the best husband, showing care with whom we associated, not allowing ourselves to find ourselves alone with men to whom we were not betrothed or married.

My mother exhibited similar actions with me. And I confess to doing the same with out daughters. These actions, though

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Of Mothers, Admiration, and Forfeited Goals …

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Despite the difficulties I had with my mother I admired much about her. That I admired so much about a woman who could be abusive speaks to the craziness of our relationship and my own struggles.

Yet and still my mother was a hard worker.

Whatever she set her mind to achieve, she remained committed until she had ascertained the goal.

As for not gaining the goal, I cannot remember anything that she set out to do and she later admitted not having accomplished.

This is weird to think about, because there are things in my life that I set out to gain, but for whatever reason have not attained, forfeited them.

Somewhere during the first five years of my marriage I

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Of Frustration, Suicidal Ideations, and The Need to Feel Appreciated …

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Everyone wants to know that they matter, that no one else can fill their role and that they are appreciated.

I wish to have told my mother how much I, her daughter, appreciated her.

But doing that would have entailed, if I were honest, also telling her how much she hurt me.

More importantly, letting her know how special she was in my life, emphasizing the unique role she played in my development, would have included telling her how much I needed her to be kind to me, that I looked up to her and when she lashed out I felt horrible, worse than that actually.

I wanted

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Of Axioms, Doubt and Similarities …

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by Jan Meeus My mother dispensed a number of axioms that I adhere to. “Dress appropriately for the occasion. First impressions are lasting impressions. ” “Start 0ut the way you want to end up. People aren’t too keen on changing in midstream.” “Do a good job at whatever the task, even if it’s just sweeping the

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Of Jokes, Cigarettes and The Journey of Life …

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by mferrell24 My mother never told jokes. Neither did my father. In fact jokes being told in the home were not a part of my childhood. I say this because I know families and people who can tell a good joke, if not repeat one that they heard. I do not mean jokes used to poke

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Of The Silence of Mothers, A Daughter’s Yearning, and Gratitude …

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Learning something about a mother, who was not forward in sharing about herself allows deeper insight into those hidden aspects of ourselves as her daughter.

The yearning to know more about a mother who has hidden herself, kept secret her inner life, speaks to our desire to connect, both with our mother and ourselves.

If our mother has died, like mine who passed on nearly two decades ago, we have lost a most direct line of knowledge. But all is not forsaken. Not by a long shot.

The very fact that our mother died keeping all close to her chest speaks volumes. It tells us that we

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Of Daughters, Secrets and Revisiting Old Terrain …

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I think we want to know about our mothers, so we can know and understand ourselves better.

The problem is that everyone has secrets, even we, daughters, hold them.

Often what we ask and desire of our mothers we can and are least prepared to give our own daughters.

How hypocritical.

Is this because we are difficult persons?

I doubt it.

We, like all other humans, are afraid.

But what is so frightening about sharing (age appropriately) intimate knowledge of our personalities with out daughters?

I do not believe we

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